WHAT AM I WAITING FOR?

How much of my life have I spent waiting? Waiting to be cared for,  waiting for a special day,  waiting to turn 16, 18 or 21, waiting for the second coming of Jesus,  waiting for “my ship to come in”…..

All my life I have waited in some shape or form. I’ve waited on family,  friends,  and customers, and I’ve waited on God.

I  view waiting,  as in a relationship sense,  a labor of love.  Being of service to others is a joy (most of the time). There have been times when I gave too much,  and neglected myself.  I  didn’t have a healthy love for myself,  so I  allowed things in my experience that I don’t want.  I  see now,  how I have created myself and my life.  I had a victim mentality,  and suffered much abuse,  self and otherwise. Now that I am taking responsibility of my life and have the courage to face what is,  I’m experiencing much JOY! I  see how I participate in creation and consciously choose to FEEL GOOD!  The better I feel,  the better life gets!

I  still see what is,  but I know that through experience,  I  come to know myself better and better,. I keep creating beauty to BE and PLAY forever NOW! As I feel good now and appreciate the beauty of what is,  I am in the flow of the magic of life!

I  waited for HEAVEN  to  know my bliss. I  spent so much time suffering,  feeling guilty and shamed, TRYING  to be good enough,  to deserve anything that I desired. I  realized one day  that HEAVEN isn’t some place in the sky I might earn my way into.  I know that HEAVEN is in my own HEART!  NOW I know that I AM THAT WHICH I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR!  I have the power to allow all that I desire in my life now! I  CHOOSE TO FEEL GOOD! I CHOOSE TO LOVE AND BLESS ALL! I  choose to PLAY!  I choose to ENJOY and SHARE my GIFTS!

No more waiting for me.  I  choose to live my life now!

Let’s PLAY!

MUCH LOVE TO ALL!

Jeanie