by Sophia Love, published on January 15, 2019
Truckma is brilliant. Thank you James Gilliland. It took a moment, but once it landed, I knew he had nailed it. It is what’s on its way, what we can see if we look a bit ahead up the road, a bit behind if we glance at our rear-view mirrors, and it feels like what (I can only imagine) it would feel like to be hit by a truck. This, as opposed to “car”ma.
Now James was referring primarily to a global, institutional Truckma. Surely, we all see that.
But let’s for a moment consider personal Truckma scenarios. For certainly, if we are all about to transform into a love oozing populace, we’ve got some personal messes to clean up. As above, so below, right? Karma just won’t cut it.
We are running out of time.
Karma is a gentler, more gradual process. It is the story played out when you re-incarnate as the wife of the man you abandoned in your previous lives together. This lifetime you are the one left behind with all of those children. It’s painful but slow and allows you time to process what is happening. You find reasons for its occurrence and eventually, lessons are learned.
Truckma comes full speed, downhill, on a cliff. There is no escape. There are no explanations. There will be a mess when it is over, and there will be casualties. 2018 was filled with Truckma for me.
Right up until it began, (December 2017) there were feelings of “I’ve got this”, “I know there is personal work to be done but basically, I am not in too bad a shape.” Who was I kidding?
Then: Truckma. It manifested as serious, sudden & terrifying illness for me and multiple family members, painful relationship breakups and breakdowns, near fatal automobile accidents, to name just a few; each of which are still being deciphered in real time. I’d like to say that with hindsight their reasons and lessons are clear, but I cannot. I don’t think that was the point.
What Truckma does is it leaves you humble. It levels the playing field, erases the irrelevant, raises more questions than it answers and IT QUESTIONS THE PURPOSE OF EVERYTHING YOU DO.
What is happening now is that there is a theme emerging and it doesn’t seem to matter which particular stage the Truckma played out on, it is the same. This theme tells me that although the expressions are different, they do not alter the point.
The point of Truckma is to get rid of the insignificant. With Truckma, sh*t gets very real.
The insignificant is anything that does not promote life. In a general sense, it is anything destructive to self or other. Other can be a person, place, animal, vegetable, idea or thing.
Truckma forces clarity of vision, perhaps for the very first time. All that was in your way and preventing your successful forward seamless momentum is removed with Truckma. You don’t get to think about it, you just have to deal with it.
You have to deal on the spot and decide quickly where you’ll be standing in the wreckage. You can’t fake your way through Truckma. It demands an immediate response. It has left a mess and you have a decision to make. How will you clean it up? Will you walk away and let someone else do it? Will you stay?
Truckma leaves many rocks and their associated hard places. Neither choice will feel very good or be simply accomplished. But choose you will.
Truckma has left a bit of chaos, yet there is something I’ve found that may just may help. I’ve only just found it. It snuck in the other day, when someone asked me a question.
I took a moment before I answered, and watched the other add detail to his query. While it was being fashioned, I thought things through and responded with honesty and clarity. The words came out full and comprehensive and we both knew that they were true. In this way, Truckma was made unnecessary.
Now this doesn’t mean it went easily after that or even that everyone was happy with the outcome. It meant though, that there was no second guessing or manipulating or gaming or posturing or pretending, due to roles or expectations. There was a clarity that hadn’t ever shown up before. I believe that this rationality was birthed with Truckma. I believe that this lucidity will prevent the necessity of further Truckma, at least in this relationship and on this particular topic. It is a start.
This is a process, and there will be more posts… but for today, let’s thank James Gilliland for putting the necessary exclamation point on what is going on in our lives. It needed to be said, and he did so perfectly. At least now we have a name for what we are dealing with.
No worries, we knew this was coming. We’ve got this.
We are the ones we’ve been waiting for.
We have anchored the light.
It is done.
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